| Yay this was my NYX haul when it was 50% off! it took like a week for it to come! :D i really like the purple nail polish! hehe
|
| |
| it really scares me to see others lose what they had and be upset about it, because it makes me feel like what i have might be too good to be true.. it makes me feel.. what if i am next..
i am so afraid of that feeling.. the feeling is so unexplainable.. no words can explain how it feel.. all i can say is.. it feel like i cant breathe... my heart feels so heavy like a thousand knives are being stabbed into my heart and it's falling into the pit of my stomach..
it aches and makes me feel so insecure. makes me feel so jittery, because it drives me crazy. this crazy feeling.. i never want again.
and yet seeing others lose makes me feel so scared and out of touch with my self..
i need reassurance. it keeps me grounded.. it makes me feel safe.. just to be back in your arms..
|
| |
| lol.. right now it's so calm at work. but i sense a busy day coming up.  i want to go to hong kong  |
| |